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  • Rachel  On 03/30/2012 at 10:42 PM
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    This is my testimony for Jesus Christ!

    My childhood was good. For the majority of it I grew up with my mom,dad , my brothers and a sister. As I came into my teenage years my parents split. At that time in my life it hit hard. Watching both of your parents go through personal turmoil and heartbreak really sucks. The best part of my childhood was my mothers teachings on Jesus Christ. My siblings and I being gathered around are round dinner table with my mom reading us Bible stories is a time I really appreciate and Cherish.

    Matthew 19:14
    But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

    Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it.

    She had taught my siblings and I how to pray and how to become saved. She explained what Salvation is. Salvation is not fiction, it’s real and it can not be obtained by picking up trash and being polite…(in other words good works). Jesus Christ died on the cross for us.God gave us his only son, Jesus to die for our sins so if we believe in him we obtain everlasting life with him in Heaven.

    John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

    Praise Jesus Christ for this woman!!!! She may not have realized at the time or even in the few years to come, but with her teachings about Christ she was full filling Proverbs 22:6 in my siblings and I.

    I had accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour at age 13. Life was good. Then family troubles arose and instead of pressing in harder to Christ I slowly drifted farther away from him. As my teenage years progressed, I defiantly had become a backslider. At age 17 I clung to a 18 yr. old guy for comfort when I should have turned to Jesus. On top of that, I had moved, eventually quit public high school. My relationship with this person was toxic and it didn’t matter, I stayed with him anyway. He was a mess, I was mess, hey were perfect for each other…..hahaha.. no we weren’t. My relationship with much of my family was estranged and so was my relationship with God, I didn’t have MUCH time for him at that time in my life. I committed sin after sin. At age 18 I missed my period, knew I was pregnant and had a pill abortion. By doing that I opened the door for Satan to further ruin my life. Two years later I had reached my breaking point in this relationship and finally split. Almost a month after the break up I found out I was pregnant.

    So at 20, I was now pregnant and about to marry a person who I despised for the sake of the Innocent child growing in my womb. My father and I sat in the car outside the magistrate office and just cried. He said “We can go home, it’s not too late to turn around now.” I said no…so there I stood saying my wedding vows to a person who I knew I didn’t want to marry. The years ahead were awful but necessary to bring me to where I’ am now. My husband was not ready to be a husband or a father, and I wasn’t ready for any of it. He started to hit me all the time and told me how much of a piece of crap I was while I was carrying his child and he’d slander my name all over the town we lived in. I hated him, I hated myself and hated my life. He drank all the time and broke all our stuff. We never had much money. He would disappear for days and just decide to come home when he wanted to. My father, his mother and others bought us grocery’s etc. Was just a mess. I had no one to blame but myself…God tells us in…….

    Romans 6:23-For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

    I knelt down and prayed that my child was healthy despite all the fighting, screaming, abuse and garbage going on in our lives. I really wanted to cash out at that point. I prayed that God would drop the roof of the apartment down on me cause I was done and didn’t want to do it anymore.

    Ezekiel 18:20 – The soul that sinneth it shall die.

    After our child was born my husband at the time was sent to Iraq. To be blatantly honest…I was happy to raise my child in peace. My son and I moved in with my dad. I started college worked 2 part time jobs. It wasn’t easy but I was happy and thankful to God for where I was. As time went on a whole lot of evidence that my husband had been repeatedly unfaithful came forward. His friends didn’t like me much. He and his family etc. had really tore my reputation to pieces. When he finally got home our relationship that was already junk was moving to the unsalvagable yard. He actually told me because he was a man he could do whatever he wanted and I had to deal with it. When he hit me or treated me bad, he said it was my fault and I made him do it. I knew he had cheated on me multiple times. So I went out and did it to him. He always made me out to be horrible and he always played the victim. After being trashed so bad….I became exactly what they said I was, and I knew that God was the answer and I needed to dig deeper, spend more time with God. I needed to rededicate my life to the Lord and this time press into him.

    Finally after 7 yrs in a wrong relationship, and months of truly praying for God to get me out of it, God sent me a crowbar. His name was Jimmy. My relationship with Jimmy was fleeting and that’s OK. I took some time away from men and spent time praying, getting to know God better, focused on school and raising my son.

    GOD TOUCHED MY HEART…LITERALLY

    I had put my son to bed one night and went into my room and just cried and cried. I was 23 at the time. I was so beaten down and sick of life. I pleaded and cried out to God for help. At that moment I had a vision of Jesus Christ coming toward me. The entire vision was in an amber color. As he got closer he reached his arm out and touch me heart. I literally felt him touch my heart. I felt in such peace and was able to finally sleep. My life was spiritualy and physicaly changing for the better after that.

    In months to come I obtained a new job and interestingly enough my boss had asked if I’d be interested in meeting one of her sons friends. My first response was “ahhh no thanks ,that’s OK.” After a while she brought it up again and I agreed to at least talk to him. Today, That man is my wonderful devoted husband. After two yrs. into dating however, I was starting to see some all to familiar warning signs. I had been through enough with the other one and thought HERE WE GO AGAIN!

    God was calling me to be more in him…and he laid it on my heart so strong to go back to the church I first accepted him in. When I finally walked into that church that Sunday, the feeling of relief was one that I’ll never forget. It was apparent to me that he wanted me here for some reason. I was finally hit with something worth being hit with that Sunday…the Holy Spirit! From that day on I dug into Gods word strongly,studied and prayed for God move the mountains of oppression out of my life for good. Over the past 3 years God has grown me up in him so much more than in recent years. He has completely changed me from the inside out. I don’t know who that girl is that i use to be and I don’t want to know her. My second and currant husband is now saved as well. Our children are growing up with the word of God and it’s impressive what God is doing with each of them.

    Being were I’am spiritual with Jesus Christ at this time is such a blessing. He has Healed my son from ADHD tourettes, he has broken the chains of Hell off of many people in my family. He has caused me to become pregnant even though my tubes were tied. He is my refuge , my rock, my salvation is only because of him. I’m where Iam today because of him. I don’t deserve any of it,but iam so grateful that the creator of the entire universe took time to fix me and my family and save us from our sins and from the grasp of the devil.

    I urge all of you who are reading this and have not come to Christ to do so…and if your a backslider and everything you are trying to do to make your life better isn’t working….YOU NEED TOFORGET THE WORLD AND FOCUS ON JESUS CHRIST. Best decision I ever made. He has a purpose for all of us. You need to stop relying on yourself and other human beings . Give in to Jesus Christ. It’s not always easy to understand why you have to go through certain things. But being were Iam now and knowing where iam headed,I’m grateful for my horrible past and praise Jesus for it.

    And everything Satan has made for evil,God makes for good.

    What this means is, Sometimes God allows the devil to cause things to happen (and Satan can only do that if God allows it!) for our benefit. Which means, sometimes we have to go through something hard or life changing to wake up to the reality that God is God and we are not in control! Nor do we want to be! He knows what’s best for us, and when we decide to make our own rules and live life the way WE want to, it usually ends up in a mess! So in His Grace, God steps in, allows something hard or bad to happen, so we will turn to Him or even to test our Faith:) Then the evil plan of the whole thing backfires on the devil!! Pretty cool huh? So what the devil meant for bad, God takes and makes something good out of it for our and Gods benefit. To draw us closer to the purpose and reality of who God has made us to be.

    The Need For Salvation
    Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but through Me.” (John 14:6)

    …by the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene…there is salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved…(Acts 4:10,12)

    …for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God…(Romans 3:23)

    For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 6:23)

    …Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, shall inherit the kingdom of God.
    (1 Corinthians 6:9-10)

    …we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ…(2 Corinthians 5:10)

    …Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners…(1 Timothy 1:15)

    For there is one God, and one mediator also between God and men, the man Christ Jesus…(1 Timothy 2:5)

    …it is appointed for men to die once and after this comes judgment…(Hebrews 9:27)

    If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves, and the truth is not in us.
    (1 John 1:8)

    Everyone who practices sin also practices lawlessness; and sin is lawlessness.
    (1 John 3:4)

    Take Jesus as your Lord and Saviour

    Talk to God in your own words and mean it in your heart. “God, I know I’m a sinner. I know I’m not perfect. I know that you gave your only begotten son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for my sins. I believe that he died and rose again. I believe in him and the salvation that he offers and I want you to come into me life. Be my God for the rest of my life. I turn from my sin now. Help me to stay with you all the days of my life. In Jesus’ name, Amen”

    Iam Blessed to share this testimony with you and I pray that someone somewhere can be helped and brought to the grace and salvation of Christ through this.

    God Bless you always….Rachel

    • Paulinah  On 08/23/2014 at 2:22 AM
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      May God bless you and keep you save until life end.I am very blessed reading your testimonies and i also went to same trials of after being born again 1999 the devil was against my salvation up until i backslided.Lots of bad staff happen to me as well including stay over with boyfriend with empty promise to marry me and i did abort a child as well..God is great because all devil attacks he riched and touched me to come back where i belong and have good eternal life.God reigns and his mercy endures forever.It was his mercy and grace i am alive and saved again.Halleluh!!

  • Christine H  On 08/11/2011 at 11:45 AM
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    FROM Christine H:

    May 31, 2009 I sat on a cot in a jail cell crying out for God to please make sure that I would never be in this place again. I remember saying I shouldn’t be in this place, I should be in bed with my babies, all four of them. The sad thing is I only have two babies.

    Over the past two years before that night, I went from being married to giving up on my husband, looking for love in ALL the wrong places, and focusing on covering my pain with alcohol, cigarettes, and MEN. I went from being a devoted wife and mother who didn’t drink, smoke, and didn’t leave my children’s side to going out to bars 4 nights out of the week. I just wanted to escape the world. I was so hurt I put on this huge front that I wasn’t. Everyone always told me how strong I was. I wonder now if I really was strong. I think I was running from all my daddy issues, along with the things the men of my past did to me. Wait who am I kidding I did this to myself. I always thought that the sins I committed were not that bad because they never hurt anyone. HELLO I WAS HURTING MYSELF!! If you will hurt yourself by defying your body you are hurting your spirit. Gods Holy Spirit dwells in you and you are hurting God.

    As the story continues I got pregnant 6 months after being separated and I was selfish and thought there was no way I could take care of a third child. How will I explain to my kids and the fathers kids that they have a brother or sister and we are not together.

    I took the easy way out and hated myself every day after. So this led me to want to escape even more.

    Who am I? I begged SO many women to keep their babies. I even judged some for murdering their babies after already having babies and knowing what a precious gift they are and here I am taking the murder pill and doing the same thing!! The father of lies convinced me I couldn’t do it and I fell for it. Me the girl who was anti abortion was now having an abortion!!!

    WHO AM I? This isn’t me!!! Then maybe a year later I got pregnant by a boyfriend and this time I was determined that I could keep this baby. He convinced me not to keep it and even up until the last min. my heart was telling me not to do it but I couldn’t tell you what made me go through with it. I have NO IDEA!!

    I can see myself sitting in the waiting room I remember praying I needed something to stop me, anything and my heart couldn’t stop me my flesh was in control. I remember texting two people hoping that they would tell me to stop and that I could keep this baby. I don’t remember what they said but it didn’t stop me. I felt so alone.

    Who was that person!!! For so long after this I cont. to go downhill and then May 31, 2009 I wasn’t drinking just sort of sipping someone’s drink but I got pulled over and the officer was convinced I was drunk I wasn’t but I thank God that the cop thought I was because I wouldn’t be where I am today.

    I began to cross the line that night and now God is holding me in his hands. HE IS HOLDING ME IN HIS HANDS. May 31,2009 I cried out for help and God was like FINALLY she has come back, ok we got this baby girl. He is healing me every day since and now I am able to forgive myself and he has forgiven me for murdering my babies and everything I have done to hurt myself. I feel like that night God told me I would see my babies in Heaven.

    I know a few of my friends who are AGAINST ABORTION and they will be surprised to read this and may judge me.

    I don’t care you have not walked in my shoes, you have not been where I have been and I hope your heart is mature enough to realize that God is not a hateful God and wouldn’t want you to be Anti Abortion.

    Be PRO LIFE and if you haven’t walked in a person shoes instead of raising that sign you should show them LOVE and show them the rewards of being a mother and that it isn’t as hard as they think, offer some support.

    Don’t throw a sign in their face or use the word murderer. That is not out of love.

    I have done this and I want women to know how they will feel after and what God may feel. You may have murdered but God wants to make you brand new like he did me. =)

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